My best and worst quality is that I constantly reside in the future. It is best because I’m always planning and prepared. It is the worst because of the anxiety it stirs in me. Last night I fought hard to settle my tumultuous mind to no avail. I know I work hard to make the grades and gain experience to build myself up for after graduation, but what if it is all no use? I keep questioning my degree and whether it will really prepare me to run a business when I graduate. I never wanted to be rich, but I don’t want to have to worry. I worry about how I will support my family when they are old and feeble. I worry about having kids, and I worry about supporting myself. My biggest fear is that I’ll invest all this time and energy into my art degree and my internships and then end up working in a cubicle or a post office. What good will my masters in fine art do me then? I want to believe that hard work pays off, and that if I just keep working and pursuing my dreams, then everything will fall into place, but am I lying to myself?
Maybe it would be a good idea for me to go back to the galleries I found most successful and most interesting for an interview with the gallerists.
Patricia Singer, Intern.